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Dear Mom
Copyright 2002
Dear Mom,
Every day starts the same,
I am always getting caught in the rain,
I am so f*ing tired of your shit,
I am so tired of feeling this pain.
Life is an obligation,
A trial of heart and will,
Just somthing else I'll fail.
Well hey f* you too mom!
All your words are like a dagger through my heart,
No words of encouragement,
Cause I am just a f*-up.
Nothing I do is every good enough,
You wonder why I am so depresses?
You wonder why every night I pray to die?
It because of you!
How am I suppose to be somebody?
All you ever tell me is such a disappointment,
Well f* that,
You're a horrible mother.
I love you but I hate you.
My life is s*t,
And it's because of you!
Now I finally got your attention,
You're gonna finnally hear me out this time,
You ready b*ch?
I hope you cry at my f*ing funeral,
I hope you're miserable,
And know that its your fault I am dead.
It's your fault I can't bare to go on.
I am your son,
But you treated me like I skum,
Now its over,
I am done,
No more of this s*.
So I load the old gun,
Place the silver to head,
I wish I was dead.
So I'll paint this f*ing floor red.
Goodbye Mom,
Loved your forgotton son.
Sympathy
Copyright 2002
Counting days that are gone and passed.
Remembering the love I thought would always last.
The words I needed to say,
But they all seemed to slip away.
Memories still play in the back of my mind
Sorrow and pain, and the fault is all mine.
The tears in her eyes,
My excuses were cluttered with empty lies.
Regretful am I,
The accusations I cannot deny.
A mistake I did make,
A nightmare I cannot escape.
I am sorry for the pain I caused,
But I know whom my heart does belong.
Forgiveness I do ask of you.
My love and heart's intentions are true.
Please forgive me,
And just let us be,
Together and lets re-begin,
Or forever apart and never again?
Looking at today,
Because tomorrow so far away.
Loving you,
Trying to do what I should always do.
Come to say what I needed to say.
And I will without any further delay.
With love just being a word,
Will "I love you" ever be heard?
My heart is but one,
This time I am not turning to run.
This is not just another love letter,
It is written with a love that is forever.
Written by someone sitting here alone,
And now the poem is done.
Sympathetic?
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Counting By Numbers
Copyright 2002
"One, two, and three"
Take a deep breath
I am impatiently awaiting my death.
Close my eyes,
I am tired of all these lies.
All this stress, is killing me,
My life is my ultimate test.
Will I pass or fail?
Is there really an end to this winding trail?
Have I been absent from the world?
Or too blind to see what's in from me?
Whatever the causes maybe,
This just isn't the life for me.
I am tired of all of this,
Is there something that I missed?
I count, one, two, and three.
God, why do you ignore my plea?
Have you gone deaf?
What is there left?
All has been taken,
All has been stolen from me.
Let me leave,
Bury me beneath the forgotten tree.
Take a deep breath.
Place the silver to my heart,
Are you ready?
One,
Two,
Three.
Midnight Raven
Copyright 2002
Even from birth death begins,
This is the begging of the end.
One two three, as I fall to the floor.
Nothing is left, forever more.
Dreamers are naive,
Life isn't what we're led to believe.
Indulging in denial,
Fantasy: its easier then reality.
Five six seven, this life I hate.
Saying you understand, but you can't even relate.
Until you walk the roads,
Don't speak the way of the path.
This is my choice,
I alone face the fury of the storm.
Slight rain begins to fall,
Storm clouds rolling into my solitude.
Here comes the pain,
I am trapped in this midnight fury.
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